A disorder characterized by a deluison in which one believes that they have, in some way, a personal connection to an eldritch-type deity and said belief causes them severe distress and extremely maladaptive symptoms parallel to Eldritch Insanity.
The diety is not a pre-existing god, but rather something unknown and all seeing.
The holder experiences episodes of psychosis between normal living periods which, in their mind, is caused by the deity connecting with them again.
The episodes always come with:
Short bursts of intense, indescribable amounts of fear
Belief that they are being watched by the deity
Dissociation
Derealization
Intense Deja-Vu
Getting bursts of feelings/visuals as though they have literally lived in/seen the current moment before
Anxiety
Paranoia
Depression
Feelings of hopelessness
Fear
Confusion
Obsessive thoughts about the deity
Obsessive questioning of reality
Other symptoms that aren’t necessary but may be experienced are:
Feeling as though they have seen secrets of the universe, and then been forced to forget them
Belief that the deity is sabotaging them
Belief that they are a vessel for the diety
Belief that they are being guided by the deity
•Belief that they must follow the deity
Belief that nothing matters after seeing what the deity has shown them
Hallucinations
Headaches
Insomnia
Believing they are stuck in a time-loop due to Deja-Vu
Fatigue
Episodes usually happen slowly until hitting a peak before calming back down into “sanity”. The feeling of upset and distress may linger but it’s able to be put to the side as the holder continues their life, which afterwards they may feel upset for holding “crazy beliefs” during the episode.
Holders engage in behaviour that seems erratic and irrational during episodes. This includes ranting, talking faster than normal, repetitive behaviours/movements, coming off as cold/numb, breaking off relationships, and becoming extremely pessimistic among other things.
Episodes are commonly triggered by stress in any form, but they also may happen on their own.
Holders of EID may only experience delusions and hallucinations during episodes, but no other times (unless they also suffer from comorbid disorders).
If someone you know suffers from EID, trying to keep them grounded in reality without reality checking is the best course of action until their episode declines. Not taking anything they say and or do personally is also important, as they may behave entirely different once the episode is over.
