“Retroabused / Retroharmed ID

(trans) Retroabused / Retroharmed — (trans) identity when your connection to transabused/transharmed identities is conditioned by a specific experience of abuse in the past.

By your attachment to this identity, you recreate the image of the victim that your abuser wanted to see.

Perhaps they didn’t succeed in completing their goal, and now you feel the need to do it without them. You may feel an unshakeable connection to what happened in the past and try to achieve those feelings that haunt you everywhere (which is why you might want to come under the influence of someone who resembles your past abuser, or simply someone capable of catching up on what you missed in the way you want).

In contrast to the classical transabused/transharmed, the presented term conveys a deep connection to the specific setting of a traumatic event in the past, the internalization of the experience you have lived through. You can use this identity to describe and convey your experience, or you can strive to repeat this experience in a desired dynamic, for example, in a conabuse dynamic, to fall into a repetitive cycle of past destructive events or to rewrite the past abuse scenario by adding new elements and triggering anchors to your personal traumas — in the hope of piecing together a complete picture, filling in the missing particles, and so on. From this, it naturally follows that there is a need for careful selection of your new trans- or trisabuser, as not just anyone will suit you for recreating the necessary abuse dynamic. Here, identities such as transprogrammed and transgroomed look very good alongside, as they can fit perfectly under the umbrella of your retroharmed identity.”

Coined by trynottollauughhr on February 26, 2024.

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